Hate/Love

Do you hate how 

I give you my love and still nothing is given 

Even when you deserve it 

And no I'm not listening 

But still in your heart you keep wishing 

And the harder you try

It's me that your missing 

And know

I confide and lie to everybody else

I hide and lie to even myself 

I find myself reminiscing 

Even from the beginning

Shit just gets me tripping 

Just thinking

It's you that im missing

And no one knows i have all these feelings

and now everytime someone comes close

I keep my distance 

You feel you need to be loved

So I'll be that person..

Next thing its me that your cursing 

You remember when 

We held

hugged

and kissed...

 

Now its been a long time since 

and days like this 

those are the memories that i miss

Maybe your in someone else's arms 

My minds a terrible place cause it be the storm 

She don't even care 

so whats this all for 

Over and over again it be the norm 

or maybe those were all words to get into my heart 

but no matter how bad 

and no matter how far 

I would do anything for and those are the thoughts that just tear me apart 

like The breath of your kiss up on my lips

Now there not on mine and now they're on his 

and when im that person you run to, who you want to hold you 

Im changed and a new me 

My hearts chained with a new key

Come close you'll only find yourself losing 

Now expect that to be a new thing

And when you feeling lonely 

And expecting more than holding 

Texting late nights

Recieving pics of me posing 

But filthy lies 

Cause im really the other guy imposing 

I dont wanna be the one thats nosey

But you could told me 

Instead of me opening 

You awoke me!

You really felt me! 

So tell me

Was i decieved or was it something deep?

Cause your killing me!

DON'T, please!

Don't text me

or say you wish you were next to me 

cause my best bet 

is I'm the ex to be

Moving onto the next 

impentuously   

I can guess

I'll be the next suspect

Fed up with these 

So I'll level with thee 

And without you

There's a weight on 

I can't lift it

Or there's a blade upon

Now cuts on my wrists 

Inflicted 

Only words 

Will fit this

I miss this

The hate/love 

And acting pretentious <3