"To live a life without love is lonely." - L
How could this happen?
I wake
It's morning
Dawn
Feelings of slow rage
Just hope you know our love is still forever & always
and before her voice breaks
I could hear her
annoyed to a boiling point
where her hormones are telling me to, "Leave and go away."
(Forever, ever...)
I reach across
speaking softly
Telling you, "It's all my fault and I'm awfully sorry."
As soon as I wrapped you in my arms
your screaming not to touch me!
"Look, baby!
I didn't mean to treat you less than nothing.
It was lust and not me
and I know that I bug you as a lost puppy.
That may be why
or it might be that I'm just that ugly
Even then,
you promised you always love me!"
and no matter how it sounds
Your thoughts are speaking louder
and the more I scream and keep shouting
Feels if I could move mountains
Unable to breathe
it feels as if I keep drowning
and I'm paddling from
your mater, pater malady
"Is, L or Alice,
of known fallacy?"
Now when they see us
caving in
These phases
can't take it
When we're in each others faces
Each day it's a slow escape of your warm embrace
and it'll only change if I'm looking to grow, heal, and keep pushing to beat this low
and I know (I know...)
as it rains it'll be
tears produced by this pain and ache
to only make these roots gain to get deep (Always!)
Only hoping for change
cause soon we'll be a family of three
Well I ain't the one to over exaggerate or exasperate things
but each time were talking
it's like a lonely wall you're gone and unresponsive
"Stop!"
"It's me that's been despondent
making you feel unwanted."
That's the problem in our bond cause it deems to be chronic
and moments later it's like lift off
back with the same exact attack of blasphemy
Can't stop it from happening
Especially when you try to acclimate to being happy for us three
After hours of fighting without punching
Mad inside cause this ain't the same guy you fell in love with
and it I'm without you in public
it's just a bad excuse cause I'm just bound to prove I can't be trusted
Is this the way our love is?!
My touch too much or not enough
that we've both become sick of getting treated like this
Wherever I go,
you feel
I may be sneaking away for a bit
either way
today's a new day
even if its the old ways that I miss
Here lays the problem
So I'll pay homage with promises that cause less drama
and at times we're distant
Where neither of us even listen
even when we both know somethings missing
has got me to thinking
I love you and i need to prove it
cause without you in my life I'm losing
For better or worse
(Forever! Ever!)
Getting through whatever
with me and you together
even when your eyes will tell me
These lies are dwelling
Come time you'll only find its embellishing
Reminding me of a melody of time I was trapped
but that's in the past
and now if you ask
It's the courage to make it work
for the sake of her
with baby as our main concern
(Forever! Ever!)
Family!
You're as much as part of me as I'm apart of you
Our hearts stretched out just as arms do
cause when we do fall apart
I'm remaining true to my heart
No, I ain't losin' you even when EBAH starts
"I love you for all that you are
for all that you have been
and all you're yet to be." -E. Hemingway
Forever & Always
So this piece was something I wanted to put out for you all and as you are my readers, my goal was to bring you all in apart of my life and provide you with my insight and perspective. It was interesting writing this because love is seen to have a fairy tale ending, but all love stories have sequels and some people write to avoid these hardships, yet we all experience the negatives in a relationship. From here we're learn the amazing attributes of your partner but also the negatives and that's where we learn to make it work, we acclimate to the worse part of yourself as well as the bad of your partners. This is where I believe we take the better part of that other person, which may be an area you're weak on and do our best to perfect it. From there, this relationship continues to build and build strengthening the foundation. The better the foundation, the better we're able to perceive ourselves to that significant other, which is what you want hopefully. I was also nervous on posting this as it being public and how those close to me would try to identify what I'm looking to get across instead of concluding, "Lust over love." My truth over this was ugly and I understand that, but I don't think something can be so refined where impurities are non-existent. We're growing and I'm only growing stronger just as all other things. I recognize this as E.B.A.H. = Evil Brain Angel Heart. I am a good person with good intentions but there's that bad in all of us. Amber who I have mentioned in N.E.U. Drug - Not Enough of You Drug, she's my light and it's going strong. Stronger than ever, so shoutout to all those making it work. In this piece, "Forever & Always," I wanted to bring my audience on a journey by telling a story where we're both lying in bed and we're arguing. I wanted to accurately paint this in your mind; if you've been in this situation or not but a lot of emotions can be portrayed through words or no words at all. It's hard to swallow especially when you love each other very much. Through this piece I keep reminding the you by slamming those words, "Forever & Always" and all of it coming down to family. Family being my number and if you're willing to stick through that for love. Also in this piece If you caught what I threw in there... it's like ahhh " Did he just say that they we're...?" The answer is yes. It's a blessing and stay curios @curiositywrites. Much love. Love is a powerful piece and can be expressed in so many forms, but this is what I wanted to share to myself as well as you.
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