Euphoria

You been my euphoria

in a time we trynna be dormant, 

and all this time (I still will find) 

you been enlightening my morals 

 and being constantly supportive, 

even when I had remorse for the guy I was known for 

(No, no) 

 No one wants to see how deep 

or low you can go in. 

Suffocating by all these emotions. 

Bubbling up til’ it’s imploding, 

but I’ll never be broken (Why!?) 

cause you’re way too important, 

and I hope you and Kai both know it. 

Ever since, Mr. Stinker, opened his eyes to expose them. 

That’s been a moment that’ll forever be frozen,

and we hold it... 

so close to us 

that I slowly begin to remember what it was, 

and all that when we were together 

and it finna be better, 

even if it’s just a little bit,

an inch of measure of all that we done... 

Our hope, trust, and now our son with laughs to come to an endless love. 

Memories now, yet can never touch, 

but moments like this you will see... 

all that you is. 

From the times you ain’t never had sh**. 

How could I forgot, 

and now we doing it for our kid. 

Times I remember this and times I reminisce 

with a little bit of a NEU drug, 

cause there sits in a crib, 

my cute son

and those that don’t or won’t ever know. 

The thought of leaving your son alone...

and these are regrets I hope won’t be set in stone 

cause all I really wanted was to be put up on a pedestal. 

Like that of my folks, 

so I gotta let em’ know. 

I commend every second I been blessed with your essence. 

To a family I’ll never forget and to a love that never ends, 

to withstand to make a better man. (Me) 

and there lays my high hopes, 

that Kai will grow, to mirror your side and soul 

cause I’ve been reflecting on mine and that side will go... 

Remind me all I’ve been fighting for. (Your euphoria) 

and I know it’s been a sacrifice 

cause I too have been spending half the nights 

to have to fight 

to keep myself from the afterlife. (That’s what drinking did) 

Something I had to quit.

A time I been hearing you in, 

“Are you gonna fight for this?” 

A light every time I see you & Kai again. 

Minutes of bliss ever second I’m with him, 

and there begins my dad position, 

a promise I hope to uphold and add with a vision, 

when he sees me and says 

that’s my dad and I miss him. 

That even through the friction, 

our loves an addition. 

Something I hope I’ll always have with him (a euphoria)

I see it growing more and more in ya,

an aura of smiles and laughs 

that take me way back 

to a past 

I’m amazed and I would never change that. (Never!) 

and I promise I wouldn’t have been able to do this without you. 

Me or Kai couldn’t do this without you. (Amber Sheen) and to my son, our son, Kai ❤️