METANOIA

and it’s in this pandemonium that folks will be the grandest to judge,

and NOT KNOWing 

what it truly was, so

if his sky’s are blue

Yet, 

he’s locked in his room, 

marauding THROUGH

a lot of problems he’s been unresponsive to

“Hey,

      man, 

I know it’s late, 

but I really need to talk… about these thoughts…”

Round of applause.

..and these thoughts…

LIGHTS!

Hmm? HIS and HERS

and ITs and THEIRs 

mental health WILL conspire of the love and drugs as it enters us 

Uh! 

Am I love or lust? Still

it’s never enough 

(No, it’s never enough)

I got a headache 

from thee rush 

Now, my conscious is guessing many things, I’m speechless 

Am I good or am I free?

I’m my own teacher, uh’! 

and through the years 

STILL I’m undefeated (whoa!)

but that can 

take a TOLL on HIS HEALTH,

battling it himSELF 

and that’s the pain that was felt (L)

and there 

EVO

with retort from the PEOPLE

Severs a connection 

where only he will REACH YOU

Could that mean he could be deceitful?

and your words to trust 

is something I could never ease to

So

I keep your attention to my 

personal gimmick

A cusp to where words ARE my riches 

and any follower would ADMIRE its take

Instead, they count me out like CHANGE

Now, isn’t life beautiful as I 

walk with the snakes 

down it’s garden for ritual is highly

investibly sought 

even through the days I lead the road in distraught 

Alone, keeping on…

Regardless 

of the fear fought 

I tread on through it’s muddy WATERS 

I RECOGNIZE facade as I 

dip & endure its LONG & lengthy process 

cause I know you’ve SEEN as I’ve BEEN EVOLVING

If not, 

then that goes unspoken but beautifully wrotTEN

Commenced with his feels,

a rollercoaster of immaculate emotions

and if you relate as I relate 

then my words can be pondered…

by rhyme or POETRY, 

The STORIES! Oh, I 

mine the brain for thee gold 

Inside might be faint, 

but still 

I continue to wrestle with the DEVIL as an Angel 

A survivalist I remain 

Struggling, so am I, that would make…

anyone go insane

Yet, here am I AS I face

Going TOE-to-TOE with 

the same mirrors that are surely showing dispute

USA and each generation toned to be flowing in you 

(DNA...) Oh, 

what a strange brew. 

VIEWED as the same roots

I came to, 

and evolved these shoes

UP into these boots Uh’!

and it’s been a 

minute at the coast, and still he repping that letterman to let em’ know 

his HOME..FUNK 

in western style, hunny

Who came to get that bag and fold of new money? 

Now, where’s your wild at and your niche to be something?

So I 

GO and release to the public

and that’s when this…

SOUL enter me

and when I get it, the FLOWS 

& adrenaline with the weed 

I preach and go,

God speed...

This the reality I hold down

(weighed down) 

as I researched the animality in me, 

(and deep DOWN)

the way that it speaks 

the way that it IS at the seems, 

(I penned to lay OUT)

But this…

PAIN when it peaks 

takes FULL reigns 

and my actions SPEAK LOUDER and I NEED…

a remedy when I’m in it

I’m a…

feen with a vision, 

and it only gets WORSE when I hold it all in 

with no one to go to as mi compos mentis is falling

then mixed with the drugs and alcohol, 

well… 

your boy ain’t tolerant

Problems that’s been obvious 

and he’s actually been… 

…in/out of it 

with thoughts that put him

deep in his psychology 

Interpose, you wish to follow him

CLICK; 

Social medias the eye, and thee WATCHER! 

SO,

You could check-mark THESE years that you thought you were….

FREE,

THOUGHTS that you had privacy, 

and post it all: 

Party; where you from? 

Markets now, “WHAT THEY WANT!”

Marking OFF acknowledgements! 

Oh, IS THAT another year where I built in these tiers, 

the COMMON SENSE 

WhooP! And on top of that,

these tears OF SUFFERING. 

RAINS of spring;

season cycling!, 

and when you see him, sun, smiling

Is it a facade, 

or are these looks OMINOUS? 

Oh yes, 

it’s fucking with! 

Yet, an influence & congruence on

my rudimentary flaws 

My rudimentary flaws 

will get me to reach for the stars 

Oh, Reach for the stars! 

This is the GOLD 

to figure who you are IN THE MIX OF THE WORLD. Oh riddle me,

and paint me what really MAKE YOU RICH! 

And is it poor IF MY value all COMES within!?

A penance on my philosophy’s what I done did 

Elaborating what I trust in the lord 

A life I continue to elaborate the, “what” in more…

and is it, “U.S.”

where loves AT WAR, forever? 

Oh, is it, “U.S.”

leading to something MORE we’re destined 

is that WHY

I’m constantly being tested ? 

Me!… against my IMperfections

Oh lord,

deliver me from envy, where thoughts are always tempting…

where skin & wants paraded on 

like propagandas got wrestling

Trying my faith til it’s ON empty, 

it’s unrelenting

It’s vice versa with me and every other person 

Oh, 

am I worth it?!

I know I’m FAR from perfect 

Yet, hoping I’m enough for heaven to say, 

“I can put the work in”

Orchestrating fate… to resolve these QUESTIONS,

with nothing but 

an honorable mention 

and just know… just know! 

My love will stretch across the board, when I’m back in YOUR arms. 

No, I’m NOT that far, 

just look towards the stars 

and my voice… will be embedded in ours 

Just REMIND ME, 

“when I’m here and what I’m living for!”

and what I give for it 

Oh yes, I give four

I feel for it 

….an inwards

question of my existence 

Questioning as I’m induced to other dimensions, and asking for your forgiveness, 

(your eminent) 

I’m the 

same BOY 

who was looked at 

as your own innocence 

You IGNANT? 

A caterpillar…

TO A BUTTERFLY births IMMINENT

and within the sum 

of what I make of MY minutes

EITHER it’s for fame! 

or to ENHANCE all these different types of riches! 

with an eternity 

that could be a segment 

of my sentence, so NOW…

I’M PRESENT! 

A rise that’s been on an INCLINE 

and my friends, 

as real as I 

Proclaimed it, 

within their eyes…

these, “Highs are highs” 

but refrain from 

explaining when these, “lows are lows,” 

might just be…

way too painful 

Still, 

I give it my all 

and I GIVE IT when I GIVE em my heart !

and you see it…

in those dark days I EVINCE depictions for… 

No, you not the same no more 

when afflictions filter you sworn 

I see it when I see you each morning 

No, 

YOU NOT the same little girl or 

boy 

“Oh, in what ways? What ways,

ONLY ways you can save in a soul…. 

and those are the…

WaVes I’m ON

Experiences I could paint in a song! 

and my 

EMOTIONS really (SHOW IT!)

Colors euphoric… in-a-fashion 

and the way I APPROACH IT, 

in my head’s a thunderdome to-be-practiced, 

Oh, lord…

how can I not-be-laughing?

Because the problems I have 

is more a war… I fight with a passion 

WRITING until I INCITE more! 

Guided by the spirit, I fend for: Yeah, 

these tender tears. I know I’LL make more! 

Choices & EMOTIONS; 

every minute I’m EXPLORING 

and currency MIGHT be blood, and currently…YOU MIGHT be paying more 

and the fact that it might not relate, 

justifies it might be VAIN

-“Oh! What was the price I paid?”

I PAID with pain, and paid before

cause now, I know

Now, I know…

there ain’t no drug that could possibly NUMB my soul,

so give me a prize 

or an Emmy FOR my performance, 

a selfish but

philosophical atonement 

and we are, 

we are, we are

Spiritual beings 

having

human experiences 

that lead my mind in curiousness 

Remind me, 

what WE live for, 

and what we give for it! 

Oh yes, I give four

Oh, I feel for it 

….an inwards

QUESTION of my existence 

Time,

a GIFT I’m GIVEN 

and a life… 

I build with pride, and I WILL defend it…

Whether my at my highs & lows 

Reminders often given in obstacles,

that some say’s impossible! 

You real or fake 

or just an NPC propped to fool 

THOSE less KNOWLEDGEABLE? 

Oh, God…

I seek your fortune..

on what makes me important

with least distortion?! 

But before I past my torch,

I’M ACKNOWLEDGING THOSE who live 

to trade their endorsements 

with TIMES unfortunate 

but yet, evolve 

so I’m rejoicing to MY MISFORTUNES!

Oh, God of Ankh-El

and hear me…

Micheal, will I ever be enlightened to know…

REASONS we ALL PAY the piper for, 

and is it for…

the same gold that sits-inside-your-soul

Oh, is it bright….

IS it divine ?!

and is it

an ever lasting light, “this little light of mine? 

SOMETHING we’ll always cherish! 

and MINE is SURELY pending! 

Until then, it’ll JUST take some time & investing 

BUT FOR NOW, 

just let me live my life & venture 

in a series of surviving where perception key’s the lesson

I need amendments

to walk out openly in the streets 

so I’ll keep defending

what it could possibly mean to me 

as I drew the few, “GOOD & Collective”

Baby, no more falling from the pressure

with these MIRRORS that y’all are obsessed with

No, NEVER surrender…

yourself to the WALLOW 

Alessandro, just watch where your mind goes,

WATCH!

as your MIND GOES!

as you realize-real-lies IN-ITS-CYCLE! 

That’s life thou… 

in its HIGH & LOWS 

Yes & NO… to the days off, 

while karma WORKS… in the schemes of chaos

with plans elaborate, 

put me ANYWHERE in the world, I’m-a savage 

Traveling,

I need an atlas 

Mixed 

with the cash game, 

Yeah, that’s the REASON I ball like magic! 

Money,

no cap….

I’m a 

capitalist? Nah, 

I’m proud and a maverick QUALED

studying, 

gutting my habits, 

watching the PATTERNS (fall)

I problem solve 

with what I done did WITH A PEN

with thoughts I express to an endless DEMAND

I know I only provoke them! 

Yes, I know that I only provoke them! 

I TRY NOT 

to promote them!

I try NOT to PROVOKE them, 

and lose MYSELF over MY EMOTIONS 

Oh, baby, I try not to promote them and just KEEP my focus 

even when..

PRIDE is your OMEN; 

Baby,

you need to open! 

and expose your soul…

with your third eye

while life unfolds 

STORIES…. scattering, and all of it HE IS capturing. 

It’s been battering, but it never shatters 

but yet, IT STILL can rattle him. 

It’s hard to fathom 

as it all surrounds me, passing me 

This world picked of poetry

and THAT!… of the same flower that BLOOMED…

in the same dark ROOM with the heart to prove… 

eternal youth is my HAPPINESS!

and my worthiness depends on the roads I CHOOSE, 

on what & WHO I’m clashing within

or whatever MAKE ME happy!

Just take it ALL back before the light…! Uh’!

trumpets are calling 

HORNS, the last of em’ 

Tallying my actions, feelings that include my past,

as well as my BELIEFS & fruitful acts that may lead to my Nazareth dawns 

THE WEIGHT of the mirror FINALLY

drops 

I watch history fall! 

Baby, I watch history fall! 

and you’ll see from my eyes that you want repentance! 

and you‘ll see WHY 

these feelings come over me! 

 

Consequences of our actions, people be trolling me. It’s like…

your KNOWING ME

 

Uh’! IT’S LIKE

your knowing me 

WHILST!..

this pandemonium is growing in I 

This is the story of Metanoia and walls I confide 

Yeah… this is for GROWING

These are the stories 

each and every day 

and each and every year 

and this is for those times…

when we do take chances

Chances where I find my worth,

and recognize my flaws. Flaws that keep me growing! 

so this is to the imperfections that bound us because…we are imperfect, and always will be 

It is done so by a powerful force, and when we finally accept that, 

only then will we live the life we truly yearn for

Seeing through…

and finding that light that’ll pick us back up

Mm…

This is to you. 

This is to the beauty before you, 

behind you, 

above 

& all around you 

Hózhóogo naasháa doo
Shitsijí’ hózhóogo naasháa doo
Shikéédéé hózhóogo naasháa doo
Shideigi hózhóogo naasháa doo
T’áá altso shinaagóó hózhóogo naasháa doo
Hózhó náhásdlíí’
Hózhó náhásdlíí’
Hózhó náhásdlíí’
Hózhó náhásdlíí’

“And it was there…

I found myself one night, standing in front of a mirror….  “