Curiosity Writes

Old me, 2016  A smile can hide it?  I fight this  This feeling  No, I can't deny it  Deep up inside  I try  Please...  won't you stand by  Even when I know  i t's nothing but lies  Deceived, but try and try  Continue until I  Find my... "A reason  to put it   all on the line" Met a girl so descent, I believed it Never  tore me to pieces  Never left me on my weakest just peaking  We were a team  She kept me from the sheets and never left me on the deep end This is it This is that feeling  My  one in a million  Every word  I hoped that she meaned it Gave me maybe one, two reasons  Then she promised I thought that she keep it  but all that changes as I'm watching her leaving  (Exhale) Now... try to have that R e-winding  All in your mind Piling  Life's a bitch ...

    Hey Baby *Crying* It's hard once these feelings come on by  Song comes on and I try my hardest not to cry  Amongst the stars I wish to summon  I know your there  This nightmare I plummet  as these dreams of you keep on coming  Can't stomach it No numbing this  Each day I keep on runnin'  You wonder what would of been ours but these hardships drag us farther apart  like what should of been my son or daughter?  Ahh could of been (a father)  Putting em in this cradle now  Cries i hear em, faint sounds   Our Angel!  in the Playground  Can't even say prenatal  like no I'm not able  for both of us it was fatal  on losing  our Angel (I awakened the ghost of y'all broken and left where most would fall) Now I'm left with  being separate and once I had the Smith and Wesson against my head and for the second ...

Hard to see something so special and precious  used like a weapon A feeling we get obsessed with  for the wrong reasons if we let it  What am I?  Love I'm feeling love  I'm feeling I'm feeling love Now I feel  She be giving me some  of that feeling really deep trust  Seeking where we from  That we may become   belonged  ahhhh ooooo Unleashing in me  When your gone I can't sleep  cause I'm alone and only one piece  Oh, God This has gotta be a dream cause I dont believe it  Oh, I just gotta see ya  With the way I been feeling  With the way I been dreaming Represents you, my building  A pillar holding up my ceiling  (The feels) Oh, yeah  Smiling all the time on your phone is what I really want  Wonder where the time really gone  To figure i ain't alone  (No) It's not like that with this one  We both reachin'  The peak of the fever  Believing that...

                        I write  this elegy i n reflection of the way my mood swings   Abstrusely Words be abuse when people are accusing me Saying it's a fool to be   but it may be the only   oh but slowly   way to feel up this hole of lonely      At most      that shows      Holding onto your shadow      Keeping ya close      in ploce pro,      Wake a prayer, which is where I lay my despair      I Inquire, "Is life fair when your child's not there...?"      Seth, here I am mourning ya      I toss and turn      I don't lay dormant all through the morning      My thoughts be a forest, so I ask myself,     "How did I get to this point in life?'      Wonder where I'm going, just along for the ri...

Do you hate how   I give you my love and still nothing is given  Even when you deserve it  And no I'm not listening  But still in your heart you keep wishing  And the harder you try It's me that your missing  And know I confide and lie to everybody else I hide and lie to even myself  I find myself reminiscing  Even from the beginning Shit just gets me tripping  Just thinking It's you that im missing And no one knows i have all these feelings and now everytime someone comes close I keep my distance  You feel you need to be loved So I'll be that person.. Next thing its me that your cursing  You remember when  We held hugged and kissed...   Now its been a long time since  and days like this  those are the memories that i miss Maybe your in someone else's arms  My minds a terrible place cause it be the storm  She don't even care...